Muddled

Tweety, Today was a day filled with mixed feelings… boy am I tired of all this shit…

I am happy going out
But I am unhappy reflecting
There is so much to think about
And I cannot just go ahead letting my feelings direct me
I might end up hurting myself and everyone else

I love going out with her
It’s always filled with laughter and joy
But at the same time
You can’t help but be reminded that she is like this to everyone
Can I take it?
Will it be able to take it?
Trust I guess

But at the same time
I am tired of her* being so innocent
So unsure
So unconfident
But she reaches somewhat deeper
Perhaps it was due to all the time spent
The knowledge gained about her
With her being so simple to understand

Is a Christian
Izzant a Christian
Seems obvious izzant it
Or is it not?
Either
Or neither?

Suddenly
Unknowingly
Both brought food for me
She might not say it
But is it what it is I perceive?
Or is it just simply her?
Have I really touched the depth of her heart?
Or have I simply touched both?

I need to choose
The crossroads has been reached
Time is running out
Is it?
Is this the sign of an ending?
Or the sign of the beginning
No one is perfect
But I will never be a 3rd
Maybe bad timing?
Blame that it can’t help but keep slipping by…
But the feeling is weird…

It doesn’t rain
It simply pours
Or it just shines all day long