Well. Today is the last day of 2003....
I feel so down tweety.... real down.... Feel like such a failure in love and relationships....
Haiz... I think i blew all hopes for myself... I am such an impatient person!

Love is just like fishing....
There is alot of waiting...
and waiting....
Otherwise u become irritating...

Love needs lots of thinking tooz...
didnt really believe in that, i tot love is just following what ur heart tells u to do.. But i am all wrong... How come? I just dun get it... If only I had the power to read minds... wouldnt it be wonderful? I have also realized that when it comes to love, i get very sensitive... And this irritated the other party... sigh~ but i just cant help it!

Den again, Why do people want to go stead? This is one funny Question.... Why cant people just want to remain as super good friends instead? I guess the answer lies with the word security.... When u go stead with her, she is kinda yours... and others will not tend want to try and take her away from u... You will also feel safer, knowing that she is by ur side since she agreed to go stead? But other den that, there comes a ton of problems that would surface....

Now i know how a gal feels when she likes a guy.... hahaz... its lame but its true...
Not been getting much sleep lately... over this stupid but yet, trilling? word called Love....

Someone just told me that i am too aggressive... Say that i should tone down.. or else she will start to ignore me.... But i said i cant help it! realli!... ok, maybe i should start from scratch... do it all over again... But will she give me a chance? Is she going to still share her problems with me?

She just gave me a hard time last nite knowz... and i bet i made her pissed by discouraging her from doing something... but i know that certain things cannot be done in a certain way!
Wished i could just agree to her terms... but..... grrr... why cant she see things in a different angle? I am pisssed, angry, upset, lonely and fustrated.... i must change.....