I went

I have been quarrelling with myself. If its pity or its really affection. Why am I in this mess right from the start anyway. Anyway, she did broke down to me over the phone about him. She went out with him, but didn’t trash things out… maybe cos things went too well and she felt too comfortable with him. Well, we went to catch Pirates at PS today. Had a good time but she was kinda weird while at the arcade… guess it reminded her of him. Than came the weird part. She asked me to go her house together with a friend to watch a show. Weird rite. What am I supposed to do at her house? At first I said no but still went in the end. Her mum kept talking about how shy I was -_-||. Anyway, the main highlight is not this today. She sent an sms saying she was wondering if she made the right choice in staying with him. And asked me to “Kill” her. What am I supposed to do manz… help me… I am the centre of the universe. I felt like, fine… you have chosen him, go with him, why still bother to tell me… Is it because I have comforting you all this while that you find he is ok? Maybe I should just leave you the way you are and let you really feel what it is like when with him. But will that mean you will be very affected by your studies? I dun want you to fail your alevels and than regret that for life! WAKE UP! STOP BEING SO INDECISIVE! WHAT IS IT IN YOU THAT I LIKE? WHY AM I BEHAVING LIKE THIS?

- you are taking longer and longer to reply my smses… I wonder why… should I stop massaging you altogether? So that I can move on? Or should I continue to suffer in order for you to be able to make it through Alevels just so that you would be grateful to me…