Irony

Am I rushing?
Am I thinking too much?
Am I affected?
Should I insult my sensitiveness?
Have I really acted really that well so far?
Or you have just assumed it to be?

Why?
It just takes a spark
To light it up all over again
I used a cup
To fuse it away

But once I take the cup off
The air suddenly seemed to be so dry
You know what it means
But I can run no more
Siblings? Or carry on?

Read though the past
Found out
I have not really changed
Maybe became more patient this time
Not so aggressive as before
That was almost 3 years back..

But it is a big mistake
To ever think if it were to ever happen
It is darn stupid of me
To ever have such thoughts
When you are still attached…

Wonder why
Wonder how
But somehow
I cannot hide
I have to face it
Tackle it
And not fall into that trap ever again

To fake it is always so painful
But it is for the better
We can never be together
Not at this state…

Evil me...
Never think before making decision
sick!
fine!
Priority now is for you to be happy and do well for ur exams

Smiles*
Lets just be friends
At least for now...
Let me rest
Let me focus
I don't want to shut out again :x
It's turning away and not solving