If I let u go......

Day after Day
Time passed away
And i cant get u,
outta my mine

Nobody knowz
I hide it inside...
I keep on searchin
But i cant find
The COURAGE to show
To let u know
I've never felt soooooo Much LOVE before...
and once again, I'm thinkin aboutz
Takin the easy way outz...

Chorus
But if i let u go!
I will Never know
What my LIFE would be
Holding u close to me...
Will i ever see
U smiling back at me O yeah!
HOW WILL I KNOW
if i let u go.....

Night after night
I hear myself say...
Why can't this feeling
Just fade away...
Theres NOONE LIKE U
U speak to my heart...
Its sucha shame
we're worlds apart...

I'm too shy to ask
I'm too proud to lose..
But sooner or later.. I gotta choose...
And once again,
I'm Thinking aboutz...
Taking the EASY way outz...
(back to chorus)

For those who dun understand english.. Let me dub it in chinese

Yi tien yi tien
Shi jian guo qu
Er wo bu neng
Ba ni wang diao

Meiyou ren zhi dao
Wo xin li de xiang fa
Wo yi zhi zai xun zao
Dan shi zhao bu dao...
Na yong gan de wo
Lai gao shu ni
Wo chong lai mei you zhe me ai guo
Er wo you yi chi zai xiang~ zhe
Xiang ze rong yi de chu lu~

(Chorus)
Dan ru guo wo yi fang qi ni
Wo zhe me hui zhi dao
Wo de shen huo
You ni zai wo shen pang
Wo dao di hui bu hui kan dao
Ni hui tou dui wo xiao.... O yeah~
Wo zhe me zhi dao....
Ru guo wo fang qi ni~

Yi ye yi ye
Wo dui zi ji shuo
Hui she me ze ge gan jue
Yong yuan diu bu diao
Ze li mei you yi ge siang ni!
Ni dui wo xin tan
Zhen shi ke xi ar
Wo men ju li siang cha

Wo hai siu, wen ni
Tai jiao ao, yu shi qu
Dan qi zao wo hui, siang tong zhi ji
Er wo you yi chi zai xiang~ zhe
Xiang ze rong yi de chu lu~
(chorus)

Well. Today is the last day of 2003....
I feel so down tweety.... real down.... Feel like such a failure in love and relationships....
Haiz... I think i blew all hopes for myself... I am such an impatient person!

Love is just like fishing....
There is alot of waiting...
and waiting....
Otherwise u become irritating...

Love needs lots of thinking tooz...
didnt really believe in that, i tot love is just following what ur heart tells u to do.. But i am all wrong... How come? I just dun get it... If only I had the power to read minds... wouldnt it be wonderful? I have also realized that when it comes to love, i get very sensitive... And this irritated the other party... sigh~ but i just cant help it!

Den again, Why do people want to go stead? This is one funny Question.... Why cant people just want to remain as super good friends instead? I guess the answer lies with the word security.... When u go stead with her, she is kinda yours... and others will not tend want to try and take her away from u... You will also feel safer, knowing that she is by ur side since she agreed to go stead? But other den that, there comes a ton of problems that would surface....

Now i know how a gal feels when she likes a guy.... hahaz... its lame but its true...
Not been getting much sleep lately... over this stupid but yet, trilling? word called Love....

Someone just told me that i am too aggressive... Say that i should tone down.. or else she will start to ignore me.... But i said i cant help it! realli!... ok, maybe i should start from scratch... do it all over again... But will she give me a chance? Is she going to still share her problems with me?

She just gave me a hard time last nite knowz... and i bet i made her pissed by discouraging her from doing something... but i know that certain things cannot be done in a certain way!
Wished i could just agree to her terms... but..... grrr... why cant she see things in a different angle? I am pisssed, angry, upset, lonely and fustrated.... i must change.....