My Diary 2003

Yesterday is History, Tommorrow is a Mystery, Today is a Gift, Thats why we call it the Present

Thursday, May 22, 2003

Hello Tweety....
Just feelin rather depressed nowz.. over one of the kids.... sigh~ i just feel that all my hardwork has gone superfast down the drainz... Sigh~ its going to take me a long while to get over it....
Anyway, Todays sec2 maths paper was not actually a killer as many had said it to be. Paper 1 maybe was a little on a tricky side, but if pple had been doing their hw, its a breeze. This is where pple who copy hw loses out Badly. Paper 2 needed a resonable amt of understanding for pple to be able to do it. Misread the Q and the ans will surely be wrong..
ARRRRRRRRRRR i am so fedup siaz. sigh~ Sorry ar, Need to release some unhappyness todayz. I must learn to be patient and to be understanding and to think positively and learn not to get angry unnecessarily. But some things take time to change knowz... haiz. I have also realized that i lose trust in others easily... Wonder what many pple think of me siaz. Really want to know, but afraid to take the blow.
haiz~
how nehz?

Wednesday, May 21, 2003

Yoz tweety. Goodevening manz.
Ok, for a start, hmmz.... Somehow or another, i am sorta worried about the current sec2s... many of them like not going to do well for science like that siaz. Haiz~ Hope there would be moderation...
Ok, Today someone lent me a book. Its titled "Leadership and Self-Deception" hahaz, sounds chim huhz. I was just like hanging around somewhere, picked this book up, read it and then the owner said that it was a good book and asked me to borrow it and read it.
Hmmz, it is Indeed a good book. It speaks about WE people think only about ourselves and how we fail to think in other peoples shoes. It writes "The biggest problem with you, is that you do not see what is the problem you have." How come neh? If we have problems then we should know one wad rite. Ok, so here is just one story that explains a tiny part of the whole thingie.

David the boss of a company: " I have a conference room around the corner from my office where i often to to think and strategize. The people in my department knows that the room is kind of like a second office to me and are careful now, after a few altercations over the last month, not to schedule it without my knowledge. Lask week, however, someone in the department went in and used it. And not only that, she erased all my notes from the whiteboard. Can u believe it?"
"No, thats pretty bad, She shouldnt have done that"
"Thats was i thought too. I was furious! It took me a while to reconstruct what i had done and i am still not sure that i have everything right." "I called her to my office, refused a handshake and then told her off without even askin her to sit down and said that she was never to do that again or she would be lookin for a new job"

Having read the above article, i am sure that if we were in his shoes, we would have done the same thing. But how about stopping to consider the damage done to the employee? Having erased her boss's hard work and having a nasty scolding from him, do u think she she can carry on working without worries and sleepless nites?
Sometimes, we say things that may look resonable to us, but have we ever stopped to ponder about the effects of our would be actions? It may hurt a person, causing damage although it is not intentional.

ha, actually there are more examples but i am too lazy to write out lorz =P
Anyway, gtg, tc and bye bye. O ya, got somore poems, arya, too lazy also larz hahaaha Bye~

Monday, May 19, 2003

Yoz Tweety,
Am now watching this show on channel U. Funny knowz. Trust this man and this woman to always do stupid things to make pple laugh. Ok, this show is about this 2 teams ar, and they are competing to see which team reaches the destination of Woodlands from marina there. And how are they supposed to do it? They have to ask around the public WITHOUT asking where they are going to. And if they decided to ask Where that person is going, they have to go to that destination and carry on till they reach woodlands. Then ar, they came across this old woman, so ask her where she was going lor. And then she said "woodlands" and immediately they SCREAMED and the poor old lady got a BIG fright siaz. So funny manz, her face looked so Bewildered and i think she thought they were crazy siaz. Arhahaha, you should have seen siaz.
Anyway, me going to watch xiaobao liaoz, Byebye

Sunday, May 18, 2003

helloz tweety.
hmmz, actually ar, today i was rather upset. Sigh~ and i actually wanted to go all the way to find out the source. There is one thing in me that i dun seem to be able to change lor. And it is the bearing of grudges. But after going to church ar, i sort of learnt something. Actually a few weeks back i also recieved a mail titled "Let Go, Forgive n Forget, Walk Away Frm Disappoinment" Anyway, today's message had the similar meaning to that of the email. It tells about how many people including me, these dayz, who keep broading over wad nasty things others may say to us or done something to disappoint us in some way or another. And it is our Choice, to continue to broad over it and get angry? and to dwell on it and get more and more bitter? or to be responsiable for my own feelings. To take control of it, to forgive and to forget and stay happy. Here is a passage of the email :"

Forgiveness doesn't mean that the other person's behaviour is okay.
And forgiveness doesn't mean that the other person is off the hook.
He's still responsible for his misbehaviour.

Forgiveness is about letting yourself off the emotional hook.
It's about releasing your negative emotions, attitudes, and behaviours.
It's about letting go of the past so you can go forward to the future.

Also, such feelings can also make us feel down and out, causing us to feel that no one can be trusted. But its totally untrue cause there is always someone who cares for us and takes care of us.
After the message was preached, we then sang the song "Count your blessings", Not bad ayz =) all these sorta helped me cool off and think about how lucky i am. I am sure there are many pple out there who are not as lucky as i am. So i should learn to be satisfied and to have a positive attitude towards things and to people around me.
Haiyaz, gtg liaoz, me so hot and thirsty nowz. Tata, Goodnitez~

Good-Afternoon Tweety.
Ha, suddenly feel like comin in here forawhile to talk to ya. Ok. For today, the topic shall be on Love. =P
dunno why i suddenly feel like talkin about this. Haha, been out of it for so long liaoz. Nvm, ok.
Some pple say, "Love begins with a hug, followed by a kiss and then ends with a tear." Is this true? I agree with the 1st point, followed by the 2nd, but i dun agree with the third. Must love always end with a tear? i dun think so! If this is so ar, then there will so many broken hearts lying on the floor siaz.... Many youngsters these days ar, i think ar, dunno wads love aboutz. All they care about is their own feeling. Heyz, i am talking about the majority and i didnt say ALL ok. So dun put words in my mouth. I feel that people go stead on the spur of the moment without really understanding the opposite party and after going stead for sometime, they get to know the other party more and may not like it and so it ends with breakin up and all sorts of nonsense. And ar, it is usually these kinda breakin up that causes people to change drastically. Also, many people are selfish nowadays. They only think about themselves and do many things for themselves only and is espacially true after they have had their other halves. I guess this is particularly true for humans. But i guess love should be more of giving then of takin. We should try to understand how the other side feels. But it is also hard to understand if the other side doesnt say anything (espacially gals huhz and we guys must do all the guessing). So how? How can a perfect love occur nehz? It takes both sides to cooperate then can work out mahz, haiyoz, this reminds me of teamwork siaz. So that means both sides must try to understand each other, tell each other their feelings, give in to each other with a tinge of love and most importantly, TRUST each other. hmmz, this Trust thingie seems to go everywhere siaz. Well i guess without it, the world would be in a big mess lorz.
Ha, Love indeed is a complicated subject huhz? By the way tweety, are u a male or a female arz? i only know that u are a birdie.... Here. Have a bird seed =)