yoz tweety. hmmz, got lots to say, but dunno how to put it in words. Lets see, i am now 18 years old and i have experience really a lot the past 10years. I have also learnt a lot bout relationship etc. For the pass 3 years, i have been going back to kcp, had received many insults, hatred, unhappiness and anger from the students, BUT i have also relieved a lot of comfort, happiness, friendship, joy and comfort from them. So what have i really learnt from being a teacher? Can there ever be a teacher who is an all pleaser? A teacher whom Every single student likes? A teacher who is able to mould students and yet be well liked and popular? The answer is a very big NO. Why?
Being humans, it is always easier to stand at a side and say how bad and horrible this person is. Especially when that person has done us some wrong. We FAIL to look at OURSELVES too with reference to the pple what we say are "bad". It is always easier for us to stand aside and critise other. This includes me mind u. It is a very common flaw that we often fail to see. And this is also why a teacher can never be well liked and loved by every single student.
Teachers too have their jobs to do, their given set of rules to follow. Say for an example, the rule of no using Handphones in class. Its a rule created by the upper and if it is not abide by, the teacher would get a good scolding and a warning. So why am i talking about this now? Many a times, students use their phones in class. Be it to make an urgent call, a call to their love ones or play games. And then comes along the teacher and CoNfIsCaTeS the handphone. How would u feel if u where the student? u Might really get mad at the teacher and hate that teacher rite? But is it really the teacher's fault? u might say, the teacher can close one eye mahz. But if u were in the teacher's position, does closing one eye really do the trick to gain the liking of the students? NO! its a FALSE liking of the students. Why? Cause the students like the teacher only because he closes one eye and is lenient with them.
So wads the moral of the story? We can never PLEASE everyone! All we can do, is to do our best to help others and to make sure that it is being SINCERE. Why? Because if u are not sincere, it can be seen or felt. It is something that we can Never run away from. We must also learn to FORGIVE and to FORGET (thats wad i need to learn too..) and carry on with life. I have also learnt that it is no use to keep brooding over how others have treated me and to get upset and uptight over it.
So wads the solution? Try our best to make amends and then FORGIVE and FORGET and live life as it is. AND make sure that if we are making amends, we must be SINCERE and sometimes, it takes quite sometime to heal certain things. We must ALSO learn to LOOK at ourselves b4 we start to think that the other party is unreasonable or "bad"
NOONE is PERFECT in this world after all
okie, its now 12am sharp
TATA and Sayonara~

Hello... Long time no see huh tweety..
hmmz. just watched Big Fat liar. =P Funny show manz hahhaa, but there is lots to learn from it as well
well, School has just reopened for muah. but i also have 2 weeks break spread out. And i hope i can go for that geog excursion next week. Time flies boy,.. Mesa in Year 3 already and b4 u know it, i will be in NS.. Guess we should all treasure the time and fun that we CAN have when it is placed right in front of us, or else it will just dissappear b4 we can say "Hello Benjamin"...
hee, me crapping lately, dunno why. Maybe its just to kill a little time here and there. Seen and heard lots of pple havin prob around me lately. Somethings just need time and effort to solve. It takes alot of swollowing of pride to achieve certain things. Not saying that we should always give in to others. To make it easier, let me tell u a story. Real one horz. Not showing off horz

Today, i was in the bus and it was sort of full. Was feelin real tired after a long day in school and by somehow or another, i managed to find myself a sit in front. You know, those seats that faces the back. Then on one stop, an elderly couple walked in. There was only one empty seat in front of me then but right at the back, there were more empty seats. The elderly lady asked her husband ( i think so lar) if he wanted to sit. So of cause, being a Man, he said no need and asked his wife to sit. I was there watching as the lady sat down and as the man walked to stand at the side. The first thought that came into my mind was to just stand and allow the man to sit with his wife. But, i was tired knowz.. and it was like, so lazy to get up...
So i stayed put in my seat. I told myself that if the man wanted to sit, he could go behind as there were more seats. Then after the next stop and after watching them for so long, i decided to just stand up and asked if he wanted to sit. But he didnt want to! He said that he was alighting at the next stop and asked me to go back and sit. So mahlu siaz. me want to let him sit but he dun want lor, then its like there are so many pple watching. So at that point of time, i said that next time dun try to act big and give pple your own seat.
So that was how i felt in the bus. But while walking back home, i thought back. I asked myself what if i didnt offer my seat and gave in to my lazyness and to my excuses to justify that i should not give up my seats like 'wad if he dosent want to seat', 'wad if his stop is just the next one', 'what if all the seats are taken up when i give up my seat' etc. Would i feel GOOD? hmmz, so at least i know that i did something right and that i shouldnt be ashamed or feel malu about doing the right thing despite what other pple might thing. As the saying goes, we can run away from everything except our own consience.

Phew. wad a day worz. me go bath and do chores liaoz. Chaoz