My Diary 2003

Yesterday is History, Tommorrow is a Mystery, Today is a Gift, Thats why we call it the Present

Saturday, August 12, 2006

Cutting Onions

Can you tell me how we can avoid tearing while cutting onions?
We try not to look at the onions?
Yes. The best way to avoid crying is to avoid looking at things that will make us sad
Turn around and close your eyes
You can avoid being hurt by them
That’s what everyone is doing right?

You’ll tear while cutting onions
But this is part and parcel of life
It is better to face it than to run away from it
If only reality were as easy as cutting onions
But that's how it works...
Than again, if we do not look at onions while cutting them what would happen?
We end up cutting ourselves...

I must run no more
I may not be experienced enough to give advice
But at least i listen
I help to ease your pain and discomfort
And than again
How much pain and suffering is being spent on those experience?

I may not be fit to tell you what to do
That's why i don't
I only help you see things in a different pespective
I cannot control what you choose
But I can help listen and give a neutral's view

It is time for me to move on
Doing what is right is always painful
But at least, i am able to sleep in peace
Can you now?

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

Decision!

The Time has finally come
For the decision to be taken
It cannot continue this way...
For me at least

Maybe it was pity
Maybe it was real
But it cannot continue this way

Time and tide waits for no man
But one thing for sure
I will always be there
Whenever you need it
The only difference is
Its effect

Time to face the truth
Time to make the decision
Time to move on
Time to start getting ready
Time to Finally grow up

It's the first step taken
It will not be the last
In search for the first
As well as the last

Let us all now sort out
And stop moving in circles
In search for the truth
In search for eternity
=P
FYP is not Final Year Project

Sunday, August 06, 2006

Dreams

We all have desires
We want to do this
We want to do that
What is why we can't stay here forever
If only we all share the same dreams
But when that happens, life wouldn't be so interesting,
Will it?

I will wait
I may change
I will not Commit
Unless the situation cries out for it

It is a painful decision
But it had to be made
To want what i want
Only when you are done
Will I have changed when that time comes?

I will pray for you
That you would find peace and joy in whatever you do

I went

I have been quarrelling with myself. If its pity or its really affection. Why am I in this mess right from the start anyway. Anyway, she did broke down to me over the phone about him. She went out with him, but didn’t trash things out… maybe cos things went too well and she felt too comfortable with him. Well, we went to catch Pirates at PS today. Had a good time but she was kinda weird while at the arcade… guess it reminded her of him. Than came the weird part. She asked me to go her house together with a friend to watch a show. Weird rite. What am I supposed to do at her house? At first I said no but still went in the end. Her mum kept talking about how shy I was -_-||. Anyway, the main highlight is not this today. She sent an sms saying she was wondering if she made the right choice in staying with him. And asked me to “Kill” her. What am I supposed to do manz… help me… I am the centre of the universe. I felt like, fine… you have chosen him, go with him, why still bother to tell me… Is it because I have comforting you all this while that you find he is ok? Maybe I should just leave you the way you are and let you really feel what it is like when with him. But will that mean you will be very affected by your studies? I dun want you to fail your alevels and than regret that for life! WAKE UP! STOP BEING SO INDECISIVE! WHAT IS IT IN YOU THAT I LIKE? WHY AM I BEHAVING LIKE THIS?

- you are taking longer and longer to reply my smses… I wonder why… should I stop massaging you altogether? So that I can move on? Or should I continue to suffer in order for you to be able to make it through Alevels just so that you would be grateful to me…