I want to stop...
But i just cant seem to...
Why must it keep comin down!!
SICK! I feel like a stupid young kid trying to bluff myself!

I am brave enough to go against teachers, even directors... But i just cant seem to be brave enough to face myself... As well as reality....
Always believed that i have the choice... I have the power to choose wad i want and wad i feel.. But somehow.. Certain things cannot he controlled!

Managed to hold it for already 5years...
5Years with no such pain and no such problem...
Why must pple ignore? Knowing full well that i care. And yet still ignore? Do u know wad a terriable feeling it is? Do u know how is it like. Is it supposed to be like that?

Always knew that Lo*e needs to have giving and not so much of taking,
To have patience,
To be caring,
To be understanding,
and to be trusting....
I have tried, Real hard... pissed u many a times... But tried to make up for it... said so many sorries... Nv been like this b4 knowz.. Its my second time being serious abt it!

Maybe its all just wishful thinking on my part... Even if it succeeded, can it last? Myself going NS as well.... But do u tink i want it this way as well?? If this feeling can be controlled, den do u call this lo*e? Can it be lo*e? This word defies all laws of logic... All laws of sensibility...

I am really... for the 1st time in my entire life.. feeling real lost....
Studies come 1st... yes... it must come first... How did i ever get into this mess..... Why must u be so special.... why? Its not ur fault... its mine... Thank you for trying to talk to me...
Maybe u just want to be friends with me... But i just cant help it... Sorry... Thank you for the most memoriable month... since 6th nov.... But i will keep waiting...

The worst feeling is to know that it WAS so near... and yet so far.... Just a few inches away... and it floats away...

I will quietly stand and hide near u... When u need me.. i will be there... just waiting for u to call me... Just pls dun ignore me... Study hard and take care...

Stupid salt water flowing down now....

Lot Of things happened...
So little time to slowly think...
I am at lost
I need some time off..

Studies come 1st...
But i dun believe that 2 cannot work hand in hand..

Haiz... I am so fustrated tweety... Super fustrated... I dunno wad hath i done wrong manz... Or is it now my fault?
Guess it works in a way such that u happy, den i also happi...
Will stand silently behind u, supporting wad u do...
Just hope that u would notice and stop ignoring me..
Plz.... Just a few words would really make a great difference...
U are the final1....

lalalalaz
Just a simple reply can make wonders.....
Wonder why... The massage has no significance...
Its the sender that makes the whole lot of difference...

Just one, can bring all kinds so smiles =P
Sweetdreams to allz =)

True love needs to have mutual concern and dependence......
A smile on your face is enough to bring all the warmth into my heart....
How am i supposed to have that?
Am i too young for it?
Why must it be this way?