Tired out

Suddenly realized how tired I have become…
I am also human after all
Patience has run out…
Sorry… I didn’t mean it to be this way
But it has happened
Sorry… the door has just been locked
Key? Not even sure if I have lost it
But one thing for sure
I am tired out

The new can only come if the old goes
So gone is the old
Welcome the new
Will I ever regret?
I guess not
It has been long enough
Sorry once again
If ever in the near future
Things change
But the decision stands firm

Moving on
No more looking back
I will try
Not to make things awkward anymore
Target has now changed
Hopefully, it can be hit

Sayonara
Selamat Tinga
Zai Jian
Bye Bye

Shut out*

Wise Words

“Someone told me that I should let go of her when the time comes.
I have no rights to take away…
Her freedom of being loved by others.
As long as the guy is true to her,
I am ok with it.”

Duan Yuqiao
Who encouraged me not to give up?
Who encouraged me to persevere and to fight to the very end?
-we have to understand where we stand
What if we can’t do that?
-what can I do if we can’t?
How can you be so irresponsible?
You’re brushing it off too easily
When will you improve your temper?
Do you still think that you still have someone at the beck of your call like before?
Not anymore!
YOU CREATE YOUR OWN SUCCESS AND YOUR OWN DEFEAT!
Do you hear me!

Well, as i said, 5566 shows are always so timely! hahaz!

We only know how much we miss something, when we lose it…

The feeling of bitterness
Of sorrow
Of distraught
Upon seeing the loved one hugged by a rival
While knowing she loves him too
But still can’t help sensing
A tinge of jealousy…

Trying hard to feel happy
For her
But yet being unable to
Upon seeing her
Hugged by another

Moving forward
Wanting to share her joy
Only to be passed by
To cheer with another
Oh the irony…

Putting in hard work and sweat
Wanting to keep you happy
Only to see you being really happy with another
Putting up a false front
A smile
When you ask to take a picture of you being happy with her

The pain
The weariness
The sadness
To keep hiding the truth
To avoid further complication

No one promised life to be a flower strewn…
The truth is always painful
Hence patience is a virtue
But how long can one wait?
Life is unpredictable
That's how we get flirts?
Who never think of the outcome
Only aiming for the near
Disgusting...

In your mind, Dreams...

A talented man without confidence
Is just like a match without a matchbox
It can never create sparks

In life
Wealth doesn’t determine everything
But a man without dreams is a pauper
Dreams do not have expiry dates
It is only if you are willing to unleash them

Imagine one day a pair of lovers quarrel and they slam doors at each other
But after sometime, they decide to talk and they meet up…
“Why did you bang the door?”
“You were the one”
“What are you doing here?”
Both look away secretly smiling
Cute rite! Grinz*
But it’s only a show…

Through the years, I have learnt
A relationship should never even start
If it was supposed to have an ending
One should never keep giving wrong signals to others
Cos at the end of the day
Both suffers
And it builds up
In time to come
That it takes a lot of patience
In a relationship
Heartaches a plenty…
That love is blind
It sometimes has no reasons
But in actual fact, there is
That it very much depends on both parties
That it takes 2 hands to clap
Takes surprises
A lot of compromising
Commitment
Trust
And pain

It is so complicated
What is it that you really want?
Why did you say all those stuffs to me?
Dreams…
Did I really blush?
But I simply do not understand you…
Aren’t you madly in love with him?
So what is it that is happening?
I after all a human being
I have feelings too
I can wait
But I can’t keep guessing
Please make up your mind…
Before I make mine…

Didn't get to go out with you
Maybe it was all planned for
At least there is no awkwardness
At least you will not do anything out of the ordinary
At least you do not have to regret anything
And I
Need not feel bad
But yet
Was it a pity?

Why is everyone behaving so weirdly these days???
Why???
WHY???
Did I do something wrong?
Scream*

Arg
History seems to be repeating itself
AGAIN!
I want to step out of this shit hole
Help me

Ok
I shall put a stop to it
“In whatever we do, at the end of the day, we must be able to feel good about it”
Yup
So shall it be

Thank you Lord

Wha
OK...
This seems all so wierd
Well
I can only hope
That you know what you want
Work for it
Pray about it
And dun regret it

Am comforted by your words
Hopefully it's all from your heart
May the Spirit Be with you...

Beautiful Poem

People are often unreasonable,
Illogical and self-centred,
Forgive them anyway.

If you are kind,
People may accuse you
Of selfish, ulterior motives;
Be kind anyway.

If you are successful,
You will win some false friends
And
Some true enemies;
Succeed anyway.

If you are honest and frank,
People may cheat you;
Be honest and frank anyway.

What you spend years building,
Someone could destroy overnight;
Build anyway.

If you find serenity and happiness,
They may be jealous;
Be happy anyway.

The good you do today,
People often forget tomorrow;
Do good anyway.

Give the world the best you have,
And it may never be enough;
Give the best you’ve got anyway.

You see, in the final analysis,
It is between you and God;
It is never between you and them anyway.


Beautifully done
Bravo....
Tearing*

Pondering

Duck in water
Looks calm
But never knowing what lies beneath
With smiles and everything
But deep inside
It is different

Isn’t it tiring to keep wondering?
How much it has to peddle
And yet behave as if nothing is happening
How the duck just tries to avoid facing
The reality

Am tired
I can’t help much anymore
I have had enough myself
The duck has to learn to face reality

Am going to move on
Hopefully things dun progress too fast
I dun want a duck
I want something else

Someone asked me today
Sticky or independent?
I want both
But no one is perfect
So I will make for the imperfect
Cos with something, the imperfect is made perfect

I like to be happy
Who doesn’t?
But it’s hard to find one who can really
Make us both
Happy
Grins*

It is like a butterfly
Will not rush it
I have learnt
At least a little more
About patience
And trust =)
May it come…
If it is meant to be
May your will be done Lord...

A New Chapter?

Saw your face
Amidst all that crowed
Happily grinning away
Saw that face
Looking around
When everyone was on the move

Saw your face
When I said they had prolly left
The disappointment
But yet a glimmer of hope
Saw your face
Apparently he had not left

You grabbed me
By my wrist
Tugging me behind
Felt what it was like
For the first time
Being led by you

From wrist
It transferred
Down to hand
Wondering what was in your mind than
Mystified
Perhaps it was due to your childlike nature
The feeling of chasing a fan

Let you go
And you shot forward
Darting around through the crowed
Just to get a close up
The excitement
The happiness
The joy

Felt the pain
And your joy
When you smacked me all the way to MAC
It was only skin pain
Worth every bit as you grinned ear to ear

Remembered
The night when you plopped on my shoulder
But went back up again
The feeling of warmth
And wanting more…


I need more time
To know you
To know me
Shouldn’t take too long ya
Looking forward to the next weekend…
Grinz*
It's too short to know anything

Lost Child

Stop running
Stop hiding
It’s tiring
To keep following from behind
And you run too slowly as well

Mainly sad
Mostly pity
To see you in this state
Trapped in your own world of denial

You will ultimately harm yourself
Harm others
Bringing sadness to all those around you
When will you ever grow up?
You seem so stubborn

I have let go
You have to be alone
You need to decide for yourself
I will not change
Still being available whenever you want
And I will pray

Hopefully you wouldn’t take too long…
It’s impossible between us
But we can always be friends =)